One year

Hello Dipsy!

You and me both! I lost Jay one year ago last June (2023) and this coming Friday is one year to the day that I held his funeral. It's not been a good week for me so far I think it is just the thought of this looming plus I need to take my sister to hospital this Friday (of all days) taking me a lot of time to try to motivate myself this week. I get that though some weeks are better than others just now. This last year for me has been the same just remembering his last days and `what we doing this time last year` sort of thing. We were together for 40 years and it is hard to try to navigate life on your own after having someone by your side all those years which you may have experienced yourself. But on we go. Yes it can be miserable at times and like you, I sometimes ask myself if things will get better my sister just got her bowel cancer diagnosis two months after Jay passed hers was not as serious as Jay's bowel cancer and they took her in and cut it out and she has been making a good recovery but at an appointment a few weeks ago her specialist said there have been bone lesions found and want to investigate this so I am hoping and praying its something and nothing because she seems well within herself. Jay has started to come to me in dreams and they just seem so real and then you wake up and find that that was all it was just a dream and it can be quite disappointing at times. Some days I still wonder what I am getting out of bed for. One reason is my little dog he needs walked and fed so he is my reason for that. He's become quite a little companion for me and I really think I would be lost without him now. Don't be bothered about being miserable this is what these forums are for just to come on and let of steam and have a good moan if need be because everyone here will get what everyone else is going through. Take Care and best wishes to you moving forward and everyone else in this position.

Vicky x

Hope you got through the day ok and are feeling some sort of relief that it’s now passed. 
I have another 3 months before I hit the anniversary and am dreading it already.  Xx