I‘ve posted before. I‘m not sure I should post again; however, I am having extremely difficult times. Further, I am truly alone. My husband died just over two weeks ago. He was not particularly close to his grown sons. The youngest I‘ve had the most interaction with over the years, but there is a lot of family drama and anger. I do not trust or feel comfortable around the sons; nor, have they made any effort to get to know me or make much, if any, contact post death of my husband. The youngest one accused me of awful things 12 hours after his father died, calling me a liar … drama, leaving me hysterical,
I have no friends, a few acquaintances. I had one I thought was a friend, but she has been able to offer no support. She doesn‘t even respond to my text messages … sort of difficult for me to take at this time. I‘ve have minimal contact with neighbours. My next door one gave me a hug yesterday when I mentioned how whatever support I have is through computer or on phone. All my family, small it may be, is in the US. I have some scattered friends/acquaintances.
I had hip replacement surgery coming up on four weeks ago. Recovery is going well enough, but I am so stressed and tired, often over doing it. I have no help around the house or garden. I am limited in what movements and bending I do. It‘s hard for me to make time to rest, as ideally I should. I am having so much difficulty with sad and depressed feelings, often breaking into tears (alone). I‘ve reached out to various support groups; sadly there is only so much they can offer. Ultimately I am on my own and must work through this process alone … sort of a bitter reality.
I‘m not sure if typing this is „“helping“ me, but I don‘t know what else to do.
WildBird
