Hello everyone
Been reading all the posts and I am thinking how glad I am to have found this forum. I was first on it 5 years ago, on the Carers forum. Then it was a very different story for me. Living in a foreign country and trying to look after Barry who had throat Cancer. Very scary times. I was exhausted from nights woken up with him screaming in pain and not being able to comfort him. Several times he said he wanted to end it and feared he would take an overdose of morphine. He also suffered with leg ulcers which needed daily care with the nurses. This went on for several years. When he did go back into hospital he always came back worse with neglected bed sores.
Anyway, now, nearly two years since he died, I am finally coming through the dark tunnel. My recent facial rash reoccurred which lead me into a horrible lonely state. This time I reacted badly to Nivea cream which I had always used. Not now. Thrown away a lot of creams into the bon ! I was wondering this ?
How the body reacts when you are suffering from grief . As it is with me, anger at being alone now.
Going through guilt, fear of the future, physical aches and pains and overall lethargy.
Time is the only healer I suspect, and even then.
Day by day is still my motto. That and the ONION. I am peeling off another layer. Literally, as my face is peeling !!
I wish you the best possible weekend wherever you are.
Hugs are always there.
