Hello to everyone
I was just re reading my last postings and catching up on all the new ones. Two weeks since I posted about my sorry state of red face and feeling lonely. Well, one out of two is better !
The rash, due to anger, the therapist told me, has gone down considerably, and I even went to a dermatologist, but that didn't amount to much at all. The young doctor herself even had a slight facial problem ! I have been trying to keep calm and not take things so personally. The better weather is helping my mood too. Spring cleaning to tackle but it will be done slowly I think ? The whole house has to be painted but finding someone reliable here is proving a little difficult. Again, I mustn't stress about it.
The loneliness factor though is there. Luckily, I do like to be alone too with little cat Missy, and sometimes just shut the door on the world and play nice music. That helps me anyway.
Talking to other older women, here in the village, who are also widows (hate the word ) I can't relate to them and their constant moans. They have no outside interests and all they can talk about is what they are making for dinner ! Not exciting at all.
Today, I am going to the cemetery, which is about 15 minutes walk away, if the rain doesn't come. I have a bench there and can sit and talk to Barry. It is peaceful and calming there.
Just wanted to reach out to thank this forum for its connection and strong communication with others. We are certainly not alone. One day at a time.
Hugs to all
Hi Fifi!
Nice to hear from you. Good to hear your health is improving again. Oh dear spring cleaning just the thought of it
yes so much here I want to do too and that is a thought itself as well. I've changed things around slightly and got rid of a few things that had seen better days and replaced them and yes it's a slow progress but I just keep saying to myself it will get done, when it gets done. I'm not even a year in yet from losing Jay so just taking my time and sussing out what needs done just now. Sorry you can't relate much to the ladies round about you but as you say, just go in and shut your door and play your music. I seem to get a certain degree of calmness being on my own. Always have been a bit of loner so doesn't phase me at all. I still can't comprehend the `W` word (Widow) that I am actually one now but no one references the word so I don't bring it up at least you have somewhere you can go and `speak to Barry`. yes we all here for one another and get what we are all going through. Take Care.
Vicky xx
Hello Fifi
Its the `Scottish Person` (namely Vicky)
Sorry to hear that you have had a relapse with your rash hope they give you something to clear it up soon. Not had too bad a week this week. Had my sister stay with me she had a few things needed sorting out this week she needed me for so I said to her to stay over with me a few nights so she's been here and if nothing else it has been a bit of company for me. She doesn't really have any incentive to go anywhere or do anything and needs to be told or lead but it's just how she is she's very slightly autistic in a sense. She walks the dog for me though she likes doing that so I get `a wee holiday` from doing that and I make dinner and she does the dishes. I've been back at the gym this week as not been for a few weeks just not been feeling like it. I renewed my membership at the start of the year Jay and I were going together to combat his diabetes before covid shut it down and then he got ill with the cancer so it took a backseat altogether. The girls on reception were pleased to see me back though so that's nice they had been thinking about me. Well, on we plod! Take Care.
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