Loss of my partner

Oh my word...35! I thought we were robbed at our ages (which we still are of course) I feel angry at our life together being cut so short. The doctor has just prescribed me some gentle sleeping tablets to try get a full night. I can't sleep and when I do, I'm awake early hours and I don't get back to sleep. Today, I've been awake since 3:30am. How am I meant to function on that? We'll get each other through. I'm always here if you need a chat. And hanging on by your fingertips, I get that too xxx

I was put on a low dose anti depressant a couple of weeks ago, I don’t feel any different but I do start counselling tomorrow morning so fingers crossed that helps. 

I just hate feeling so lost, there feels no purpose to anything and I really don’t know if reading other people’s journeys helps or not because the prospect of feeling like this for the foreseeable makes me feel worse.

I just want my partner back, I want my old life back, I want the old happy me back not just for me but for my kids too.

Its so hard to try and help my kids grieve whilst I am in the think of grief myself.

Hopefully the sleeping tablets will help you, let me know if they do because I’m contemplating speaking to my gp about my sleeping issues. Xx

Sarah693,

I get what you mean when you say about reading other people's journeys. For me, I've found this whole process to be very good. I've preferred to read them on here rather than meet with a group, which was offered to me by the hospice. You, as with all of us, have to do what is best for you. That is what matters.

Take care,

WDJ