This is my first post on your forum. To be honest, I’m not sure if I am entitled to be with you on this forum
You see this is not cancer related but I am grieving for my wife and I’m in a much darker place now
My wife of 59 years suffered a bleed on the brain and I’ve cared for her ever since.
I lost my wife Anne just 6 weeks ago. It wasn’t cancer and it wasn’t the stroke that caused her passing. Anne’s heart became very weak and she had to go.- it seems much much longer ago. She passed whilst I held her hand with our daughter and son close by.
I try to keep busy but don’t get much done. Each day is getting longer and I awake each day with a heavy heart.
I thought maybe it could help in some ways to talk with people who have experienced the same pain and grief of losing a close partner or spouse can cause.
If this is the wrong forum please let me know 
Hello John
such very sad news I am so sorry, losing a loved one is a traumatic experience, which sometimes often feels unmanageable to bear.
I have been in very dark places, especially in the first months after my Linda passed, I wasn’t holding her hand as she passed, but I wish I had, I had been talking and comforting her, through the night, only left her to answer the door, so was only 6 feet away from her, then I heard the scream from one of my daughters that she had gone. I know how you feel, I know how difficult it is to motivate to do anything at all, even getting out of bed, in the early months I could t get out of bed till 2pm. It’s one year on Sunday, although I am managing better, I still feel a total uncontrollable sadness, which never leaves me. I am always on the brink of tears, it doesn’t take much to start me bawling. We are all different, my friend lost his wife 3 years ago, but finds it very difficult to cry, he wishes he could. Please know we are all here for you,I have sent a friend request, so you can PM me if you want a private chat anytime.
thinking of you
and yes feel free to use this forum, I hope it helps in some small way
Linda You are my best memory, You are all of my best memories
