When my youngest Son was around 4, we used to sing this in the car together, he did finally learn the words 
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The song suddenly popped in my head, and when I looked at the lyrics I thought how appropriate this is to how I feel
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Music is massive for most people I think. Colin made loads of mix-tapes for me which I still have and have a little music system to play them on!
Smokey Robinson's lyrics to 'Tracks of my tears' and 'Tears of a clown' could probably describe me quite well 
I put a massive front on to disguise how sad and lonely I really am 
26 months since losing my special man 
Yes Music is powerful, I so love the two tracks you mention, although I don’t think I put on a brave face, although being retired and living on my own, it would be easier. One of Linda’s favourites is Wild thing by the Troggs, never got to find out if there was a reason or not, will have to ask my Sister in laws. I have a large storage box in the loft of all our CDs, I digitised them all, so we could listen on an iPod, had one upstairs, in the kitchen and lounge, Linda so loved her music, used to play it loud while she was doing her housework……seems another lifetime, but still remember it so clearly.
take care of you x
Linda You are my best memory, You are all of my best memories
just been listening to Atom heart mother, Pink Floyd, Shock me and tell me you’ve heard of this, When I was courting Linda, we used to sit in my bedroom in North Woolwich and listen to this and Tyranosaurus Rex, particularly the beard of stars album, our favourite track being Lofty Skies, which was played at her funeral. Brings back so many happy memories ️
take care x
Linda You are my best memory, You are all of my best memories
I’m on holiday at the moment with some very lovely friends… however a Fleetwood Mac song came on this evening and it tore me apart… it’s the first time on holiday I haven’t been able to hold it together and I had to walk away from the group in a blind panic. Music triggers me like nothing else and I don’t know how to control it. 
Hi
i know exactly what you mean, there are certain songs that Linda really liked, but some, are almost impossible to,listen to without crying, some Phil Collins, and T.Rex for example, I was even listening to pink floyd, atom heart mother, and it really made me sad, we used to listen to albums in my bedroom when we were courting, and I’ll always associate certain sings with her.
the only solution, is turn it off if you can, or just walk away, it won’t help you to torture yourself, one day you’ll be ready. I am sure people will understand. Listen to this music when you’re alone maybe, when you’re ready to listen to it.
Hope you still manage to enjoy your holiday.
best wishes
Linda You are my best memory, You are all of my best memories
Oh-oh, yes, I'm the great pretender
Pretending that I'm doing well
My need is such I pretend too much
I'm lonely, but no one can tell
Oh-oh, yes, I'm the great pretender
Adrift in a world of my own
I've played the game but to my real shame
You've left me to grieve all alone
Too real is this feeling of make-believe
Too real when I feel what my heart can't conceal
Yes, I'm the great pretender
Just laughin' and gay like a clown
I seem to be what I'm not, you see
I'm wearing my heart like a crown
Pretending that you're still around
Too real is this feeling of make-believe
Too real when I feel what my heart can't conceal
Yes, I'm the great pretender
Just laughin' and gay like a clown
I seem to be what I'm not, you see
I'm wearing my heart like a crown
Pretending that you're still around (still around)
Linda You are my best memory, You are all of my best memories
I actually remember this song.
