Hi Jayne64
I have been trying to find your post so thst l could reply to you but no luck so here goes.
I totally understand about what you are saying and better still feeling, Pete has been gone 6 months now and l barely leave my house. We went everywhere together, we were together for 49 years and married for 48 since we were 17 years old( still not long enough
). I had to take my car for a mot on Saturday, first time l have gone out since Pete passed. I had to loose time while the mot was being done. so l went into 3 different shops, taking my time looking but not looking if you know what l mean. It just felt wrong without Pete by myself . Then l took myself to KFC for something to eat and drink, because l have not cooked a proper meal since Pete has passed, l sat there all by myself and felt physically ill, it was just not right to be there without him .Then l was thinking looking at people by themselves that one or more of them could be in the same situation as me, and nobody would no the pain and heartache they are going through 
. So yes l feel your pressure, you are not alone, some people say that it helps to know that other people are feeling the same, To be truthful l know l am not alone in my grief and this site is excellent and caring, but whether it actually helps me to know other people are feeling the same? probably not, as l dont like to think of other people feeling this terrible and being heart broken all the time, but it is good to talk to the lovely caring people on this community. God bless them all 
I’m sorry I don’t understand, where would you write @jayne64 ? In the search bar ???
I couldn’t work it out, sorry
Linda You are my best memory, You are all of my best memories
I did try it and got nothing
Will wait for a more detailed explanation 
Linda You are my best memory, You are all of my best memories
Yes it worked 
Linda You are my best memory, You are all of my best memories
