I am aware most people ask the question with the best intention, but I am getting tired of " How are you doing,"?
This now gets the answer do you want the truth or bullsh*t, I must admit this throws a few off track and they don`t know
what way to go, any one that knew the love we shared will be well aware how I am doing, I am broken my life seems
empty and the world appears a cold horrible place.
The BS answer is I am doing fine thank you.
I know reading the various post`s on the forum this is a common question to deal with.
John.
I want you to come back and carry me home, away from these long lonely night`s.
You are exactly right. I started to feel guilty that I didn’t suffer in the way I am now, when my parents passed. But realise it’s a totally different t type of love, it’s the only way I can explain it. The loss of my Wife, whom I was married to twice
1972 -1984 and 2008 - 2021. Feels different in a way that I could never have imagined, I feel my World ended the day she passed. Everyone who has lost a lifetime partner / soulmate will know these emotions only too well. All the medications do is stop me going to a very dark place, which I am very grateful for, but the total sadness doesn’t change, in some ways I don’t want it to. I talk to her often, in the belief that she can hear me.
keep safe & well
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