Ian passed away suddenly and unexpectedly nearly 22 weeks ago now but I feel so low recently. We were together for nearly 40 years and the loss is unbearable. Even now, I find it almost impossible to accept what has happened. I have just started counselling to help with this.
I thought I was doing well but this last week I’ve cried at the slightest thing- people making insensitive comments, my sister comparing her divorce to my loss, neighbours not reaching out to me, a friend cancelling coffee because she is poorly etc What is wrong with me?
I used to be able to take myself off in Ian’s car and read for hours in one of our favourite haunts but recently, I can find no comfort in that. All I can think of is how can I have a future without Ian by my side. No more days out or holidays together. When I see couples I just think that should be me and Ian. Most of all, I ask the question ‘Why was Ian’s future so cruelly taken from him?’
How does one cope with this pain……
Julie x
