My lovely partner Nic died in February. Tomorrow would have been the 20 year anniversary since we first met in person. We met online and emailed lots for 3 weeks before we plucked up the courage to talk on the phone and eventually meet up. He travelled from Northampton to Leicester to see me, we had a lovely time and immediately clicked.
I want to do something, but don't know what. I could have a usual miserable Monday, as he died on a Monday, or celebrate what would have been a special day. All lovely memories prior to his diagnosis in November 2018 are lost in a fog of disbelief and helplessness. I guess I'll have to see how I feel when I wake up tomorrow and see how it goes, but I want to do something to mark the occasion.
No suggestions necessary, just voicing my thoughts and feeling confused.
