I’ve struggled today. Although Chris died on 19th October last year, today marks the anniversary of the last time we had together due to restrictions on visiting him in hospital. The reason I was allowed to visit was because it was decided that the thyroid cancer he’d been diagnosed with on 19th August (he could have an operation and then treatment that would sort it all out- a good prognosis at that point) had actually spread and was extremely aggressive, so there was no further treatment for him. So in many ways, I feel I lost him then. We certainly had no more time together apart from frequent phone calls- but they were hard for someone who had lost his voice!
Needless to say, I’ve shed many tears today for the loss of such an amazing person, who’d been part of my life for over 46 years. That Chris shaped hole in my life is so very hard to deal with on days like today.
Sorry for yet another ramble but the thing is, I know that there are people here who understand.
Sending hugs
Jane
xx
