I haven't been very present lately. I have never really been I suppose, even though I have been reading a lot when my wife passed in August, age 38, after a year of battling lung cancer. This forum has provided me an immense support and I want to thank you for this.
But that's not what it is about. Losing my wife after 20 years together felt like the end of my world. I tried to focus on the good times we've had and the family we've built and feeling grateful for all those experiences allowed me to make my peace. It hasn't been a straight journey and I know that the next down moment could be right at the next corner, but I've felt ok most of the days and the only result is that I've felt like I was 94 and that my whole wonderful life was behind me (I'm 41).
Last month, a friend introduced me to someone she knew. I wasn't sure if it was a setup and I wasn't up for it. But without warning, I have found someone amazing and a real connection that none of us expected. I don't know what this is and where this is going, but I'm floating above the ground right now, while being utterly confused about everything.
My message is just that you might not believe it, and it might not happen, but there could be happiness back in your life when you least expect it. 
