Hope every one is doing the best they can.
I lost Tom 18 months ago now,\ prior to him getting his diagnosis i was being treated for my cancer/ treatment every three weeks for three years four days before i was due to finish wham bam he got dx,
He was by my side every step of the journey the same as i was for him, he was my strength, my rock,.. he held me up when i started to crumble.
It has now come back and he is not here, i know he would want me to carry on, but it is so hard doing it on your own, when i crumble he will not be here to hold me up.
I know the kids are here but not the same.
To say i am lost is an under statement.
I will try and do my best, he will be with me i know, though not physical , just feeling a bit sorry for myself aand thats not me,
Take Care Ellie xx
Life is so unfair i lost my mum dad brother sister to cancer my husband was my rock i don't think i wouid still be here without his love and support sadly he wS diagnosed and passed away in april last year i fight each day with an inner strength to make him feel proud and keep on as my son worries about me everyday.
Take strengthen in your self and the love you shared 
thinking of you and your family
Hi Eillie,
I am so very sorry to hear this 
Wishing you strength and love x
