Tomorrow it will be 12 months to the day.
That day.
I thought I would be okay, but I am already in bits.
Because tomorrow I can't have a proper memorial but am not allowed to hide either - there are people who have taken the day off (both my children, his sister, his mum) to come and be with me in the garden at various times. I will have to hold it all together - you know - how you hold it all together for other people you care about.
I don't want to refuse them - they need it too, and I love them all.
I have a hospital appointment in the afternoon that I thought I could handle too - a minor (hahahaha) cardio procedure that I can see now I will probably be sobbing throughout, while they wait for me in the garden
I am going offline now, so no need to post, dear folks, I shan't read anymore today.
But think of me, please - because I know you know, and it will help me, and I don't like asking for help.
As ever, feeling bleedin' sorry for myself - Sue xx
try and remember the happy times you shared and it's ok to cry at different times in the day, your body needs that release of tension and the right people will cry with you. X
I hope that the anniversary has been bearable for you. Mine is coming up on the 19th and I’m already dreading it.
sending a virtual hug 
xx
5th April will be 12 months for me. I still can't believe a year has gone by without him 
