Thank you

June, you are not alone I think one that is both surprising and comforting about this site is that we all realise that what we are feeling is not necessarily unique to our grief. That being said, each person grieves in their own way. But there do seem to be commonalities in it all. This is very "normal" for grief, I think. That feeling of not feeling. I attributed it to antidepressants when Chris first died, but the feeling of "blah" has continued, even after I gave up the meds and after over two years. It's as if every feeling is just cut short of truly expressing itself, if that makes any sense. I remember describing the first Christmas after Chris died as "monochrome." I couldn't think of any other way to describe it. And now I think life is quite monochrome, despite the fact that I have always decorated my home with a riot of colour. It just all feels so grey...

Hi June, I can so relate to what you are feeling, or rather not feeling. I am okay alone, I don't want anyone else. However, other people seem want me. I will feel better someday, I am certain. I can already feel quite good for at least 5 minutes at a time. I have laughed once or twice at the TV in the last few months. I am still the same person I was before I met Andy, but I have to remind myself. I am going through the motions, like you, in the hope that eventually they will take on more meaning. What else is there? Much love to you, give your dog a pat from me xx

Sue xx