I lost my husband in June during lock down to bowel cancer. It's now 5 months on and I'm still finding it very hard to accept. With all these restrictions it's difficult to try and move forward. My parents live abroad so seeing them is a no no. I miss him terribly and can't see light at the end of the tunnel. I'm told it will get easier. Michelle X
Hi Ellie
I still have Diane’s ashes at home I can’t decide what to do with them but I’m happy having them here
I did read the post about the m25 did make me laugh
I had a bad week the other week when I had a week of and thought we should have been on a cruise had bad dreams for a week then brush myself Off
I heard a Robbie William song earlier is it called feel had the right words look in the eyes to see the soul
I will be back on more you were always on here for me and thank you Ellie
Take care
Martin x
Hi Martin,
I've turned clothes all sorts of colours so your not alone there. Yes Steve had driven since he was 21 and he was 63 when he passed away. So 42yrs and it does run through your veins. I love trucks. I work with them everyday. Blimey 30yrs not many people can say that. It will be gold watch time then?
Take care
Michelle. X
Hi Michelle
I got my watch at 25 years Gucci watch and a gold pen got to stay in a Marriott hotel with every thing paid for their was 100 employees from all over the country their and they got two days off really good
so what do you do it’s good to have a chat takes your mind off it mine is just a basic truck and it still has a gear stick and I work for a big company
take care
martin x
Hi Martin,
Wow they certainly looked after you. Shows that you are highly thought of. I work at a car auctions. Nothing glam unfortunately.. I wear steel toecap boots, combat trousers and a hi Viz jacket. I deal with the unloading of the transporters. I have been there 14yrs now.That's how I met Steve. People said it would never work as he was 16yrs older than me. But it did work.
Take care
Michelle. X
Hi Michelle
I live in combat trousers I’ve got no reason to get dressed smart lol
steel toecap boots hi viz and gloves hard hat sometimes must not forget the safety glasses sometimes are all part of work life now do you enjoy your job
we have a depot in Nottingham somewhere
the age gap does not matter as long as you were happy not what other people think
take care
Martin x
Hi Martin,
I love my job could not imagine doing anything else. Truck are part of my life at work and home. I work in Essex but don't live there. Used to. No age is nothing. Steve was older but only by age not mind.lol. No need to ask if you enjoy your job as you have been there so long.
Take care
Michelle. X
Hi Michelle
I use to enjoy the job I work for a big parcel company the orange lorry’s but we were taken over by a fedx. And it’s al changed now no fun COVID did not help but keeps me busy but I will get use to it I enjoyed nite trunking not so many people on the roads
sorry I miss read and thought it said Nottingham lol so sorry lol
I live I Hertfordshire but work in Luton
take care
Martin x
Morning Martin,
Covid has changed everything. When a company gets taken over it always takes time to adjust. Our whole lives are adjusting now. Getting used to doing things as one person instead of two is my hardest thing. People have never made me feel left out but I feel like a spare part at times. Steve was always the life and soul of everything. I think when we can all socialise again I'm going to struggle with that. How have you found that sort of situation?
Take care
Michelle X
Michelle - hello. Anything you do or say is ok. Even just getting through a day is an achievement - so allow yourself whatever you need. Seems common themes of moving furniture, changing rooms - I moved the bedroom around so many times the dogs did not know how to get up and down as they have a little step up.
For me also : crying, drinking, cooking and giving it away, pacing, more drinking, avoiding people who want to help and being angry with those who have stepped back, not sleeping, sleeping all day, more drinking, being practical, wearing their clothes, getting by, working, watching Murder She Wrote, enjoying sunshine, more wine, being at home alone with no one to talk to and swearing out loud a lot...... there is a big list out there, so do it your way.
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