Hope every one is doing the best they can.
Well Thursday would have been our 54th Wedding Anniversary, yes a life time for me, have not know a life without him, until this last year,
I got threw the day better than what i thought, at 9am was looking at our wedding Album and smiled, then thought of our Wedding night and i have to say there was a few giggles.
So last year on our Anniversary he was in hospital bed at home, and i sat all day with him, he was asleep and when he woke i said you had a nice dream.
His reply was i have been to heaven and the F.....g B......s would not let me in.
I really would like to believe he payed a visit, as that is some thing he would not say and he did not believe there was a heaven.
I am glad it was not the day of out Anniversary but a week later it was, which again is Thursday it will be my first year since he left, the hardest year of my life.
I have so many memories that make me giggle, smile and thankful for the life i once had.
Though memories never fade away.
You all take Care Ellie xx
Aww Ellie bless you 
all those memories to treasure and share with family - the clean ones only mind!! A year seems like a long time but it's half a year since Colin died and I still can't believe its real. A year ago 
started chemo then was gone 6 months later F~€k you Cancer 
we have 23 years of memories, 20 married, not long enough in my book!!
Savour your memories, get the photos out and reminisce xxx
