Can I just take a moment to say thankyou to everyone here in this community. I am one week away from marking the first anniversary of my beloved husband's death and being able to post here and read others' posts has been a real lifeline. When no one in the 'real world' understands I know there are people here who will. Here I can open my heart and be brutally honest, and with all the pretence of day to day life that is something I cherish. So thankyou to every one of you 
