My partner has adenocarcinoma which started in her lung and is now in her brain, she has been given a few months and is currently in hospital pending coming home for the last time.
We live in Italy and the care she gets is second to none. (The home care is provided by the local medical authorities and not the council)
I feel as though the grieving process has started already yet she is going to be back with me very soon, but my question is why do I suddenly feel that my own life is done for, when we spoke about this before I would always talk candidly about what I would do when she was gone. Now I feel utterly devoid of anything and I am worried I will not be able to take care of her properly.
