Hope every one is doing as best they can, the only thing at the moment that can bring us a little bit of hope is to see the lovely sunshine we are having
my hubby has bee en gone 6 months tomorrow, it seem's so much longer.
His Favorite room in our home was the conservatory, it was his and he cleaned the outside and in side on a regualr basics, well it never got done at all last year, the last thing the two of us was bothered about.
Well today i have done all the outside, cleaned the windows, took me five and half hours, it was hard going, i never gave up, so chuffed with myself, i know he would be so proud of me, he always did all the garden, i was the one that sat with my feet up reading a book.
Well not anymore, spent eight hours over weekend, and stood back and thought yes. i could hear him saying you go girl
i am learning on this journey so many things, though i do not like it at times but it has to be done and google in my best friend, am learning about foxes as i have a family of them living at bottom of garden.
They say you learn some thing new every day.
This journey has bought so much changes into my life, i am sad, a lone,, heart broken, lost, a part of me was taken.
I never ever thought i would managed with out him, but i have no choice.
I would give any thing to have him here at my side, he was there for 53 years, always the two of us, i did not know what it was to be just me but am finding out., though hard i am getting there.
All stay safe and my thoughts are with you all.
Ellie xx
Hi everyone
yeah me too have been doing little jobs that I haven’t done before and yes google is my friend too, in particular YouTube!
It was hard in the garden as we both did it together and I had thought about not bothering to plant this year and just keep it tidy.
But, I had a word with myself and pushed myself, I could feel him watching me with a big smile on his face as a sowed seeds 
I have got peas, tomatoes, peppers, broccoli and strawberries just showing shoots now and luckily got some bags of compost before we were restricted to essential items.
I do think garden centres should be open as they do supply food that you grow yourself.
neither myself or husband were into gardening until last year, when he got diagnosed we got some decking put down and new garden furniture so he had somewhere nice to sit when he couldn’t go out. It spiralled from there and one side of garden (well yarden) is a Zen garden and so relaxing, the other side vegetable planters that my husband made from decking.
He made us a beautiful Shoji window, which is attached to side of shed. It’s so calming sitting looking at it and fills me with so many lovely memories.
take care everyone
(ps a life hack, use long handled back scrub to apply sun screen to your back if your on your own) 
