Memories are just too painful

Hi Pam

I do that too. I love looking at family photos and remembering the fun and love and happy times. The photos of our last holiday when I look closely my husband doesn't look right! I try not to think why didn't I notice or tell him to see the doctor then. He knew he wasn't well and had started monitoring his diet to see if that helped. Obviously it didn't.

I also find myself trying to imagine his fear and frustration and I just can't. I find his strength so impressive as I would have spent my days just sobbing and holding onto our children. It's too painful to imagine you are right.