Feeling very anxious about my husbands funeral

I'm so pleased to have come on to this forum and everything I am reading does actually mirror what I am going through the anxiety, not wanting to leave the house and when you do not wanting to be far from it. It's been a month this coming Friday since we held my husband Jay's funeral and altogether it is 8 weeks since we lost him. He fought for so long almost 2 years but the cancer along with continuous bouts of sepsis decided it was taking him and he left us on the 23rd June. It just feels like a lifetime althoughit's only been 8 weeks and I still feel it is so unreal that he is not here now. Mornings are the worse when I wake up and realise that he is not here now and sometimes wonder why I should get out of bed but I do in anycase and get up and dressed even if it just to stare at 4 walls. We had such a great routine going about what would we do on what days before he got ill but all that has gone now. I have a little dog that needs walking but even then sometimes its as quick as I can get him out and back in the house again. I just feel so lost at the minute. I have tried to start clearing things out but not Jay's I will know when it will be time for me to do that and for now I am just clearing out some of my own stuff clothes etc that languish at the back of the wardrobe and have either been bought on a whim or just never worn. I'm pleased to read that what I am going through just now is not in my imagination and it is normal what is happening. Yes if we all had a `magic button` we could press to make things easier. How good would that be. People are telling me time is a healer just hope it's true. Never felt like this for other relatives that have passed, but think if it is your life partner ( we had 40 years together) it can be so so different. My best wishes to you all. 

xx