Hi I lost my mum to bowel cancer 2015 my dad to prostate cancer 2016 then my husband to adrenal cancer 2016 everyone I loved gone with cancer I stayed in Scotland and with the help from Macmillan cancer support and hospice was amazing ,but moved to blackpool on January to be close by our sons I needed help they needed help but just recently I've been bad place broke lost feel terrible I know it's 3 years but so so hard and with the move I feel I have no fimalirty I lost my speech due to the trauma as after my husband's death my best friend died then my nephew and uncle both in a house fire and called my phone shouting and screaming I can't call any one for help when low or answer my phone I miss everyone so much and feel I can't get help here in blackpool in Scotland I had an advocate but can't get one here I attend mental health who is trying to help me but I break as can't speak and have to write it down I feel terrible and lost and no idea what to do or were to go for help and past few weeks been bad stumach in knots can't eat keep crying and keep asking why ,and have I done write thing in moving sorry for long story just so lost x
