Hello all ,Well it’s just after 2am,wide awake and in terrible pain with a trapped nerve in my shoulder.feeling really down and just wish Alan was here,I’ve spent the last twenty minutes or so just looking through photos and sobbing,god will it ever get any easier.just want it to be a bad dream and I will wake up soon,but I know that’s not going to happen.Every morning just brings another tedious day I get up tidy round,put some washing in,then nothing.And now I’ve got this shoulder problem I’ve been told to rest as much as possible,so even more time to do nothing.I feel all I do is come on here and moan,so sorry to everyone as I know your all suffering.ill finish now and take some painkillers hopefully get some sleep,doubt it tho.just missing him so much,..
