Hi, this may sound a bit silly but I’m constantly being told that I will feel Mark around me and that he will be watching over me and will always be close, the problem is that I honestly can’t feel his presence at all. He has been gone 38 days and all I feel is empty and lonely. For 10 years we lived in this house, we worked and travelled together, mostly spent 24 hours a day together and our relationship was brilliant. I am finding it very difficult that except for one really strong dream a week after he died there has been nothing at all to make me feel like he is around me. Is it because I can’t process his death or i’m in denial? He was only sick for 40 days and died of an aggressive kidney cancer at just 43 years old. I would love to think he is near, this loneliness is so hard.
