Struggling

Hi Limbo,

Thank you for your reply. I think, our tears would fill the ocean. I hope, we will feel better soon. Its really great, we have each other on this forum. I don't know, what we would all do without it.

Love and hugs

Xx

Hi Newb, 

Its good to know, we are not alone, but its sad, we are all crying. I hope, the night goes well for all of us. 

Love and hugs xx

Hello all.

Wishing us all a restful night.

Hi Deadmeat, 

I feel just as angry at the health care as you are.

The GP did nothing, even though my husband did complain. Then in the hospital they told us, he had a virus, what in fact made my husband relieved, that it wasn't a cancer. Then a few days later, they told us the most cruel news, that its a non curable cancer. Just don't understand, how these people can carry on, what they are doing and look into people's face. 

It has been a horrible day had blood test for my cancer dentist was very sympathetic when I went for my check up but made me feel worse  

Hi Andrea 

You're not alone duck, we're all feeling the same way. I'll go home at 10pm from work and feel exactly the same way duck. It all comes in waves and we can't do a thing about it, but suffer the torment. 

The weekend will be no different. 

Hi Newb 

You're right. Anyone can be sympathetic with the best intentions but only those that's been through loss or going through it like all of us can truly empathise. 

If it would just go away for a day just for a rest from it but just as you think the day is going good you have a wave of dispair and tears welling up I know she will never be here again but just can't seem to move forward with that

Hi Mark, 

I hope, you get home OK. Have something to eat and rest. 

I had a tierful day.

But the responses from all of you kind people have made me feel better.

Thank you very much to you ALL. 

I hope, we all get a good sleep and a brighter day tomorrow.

Love and hugs xx

Hi D 

Yes I think my crying is now spent, at least involving the horrendous grief attacks. I feel a few tears welling up from time to time but then it subsides.I remembered how ill my Anne was and her wish to die when she was in her hospital bed. She's at peace now and no longer suffering. I KNOW  she has passed on in spirit to a loving dimension but even if I was a complete atheist I would be happy that Anne  was now completely gone from any existance. ( My spiritual knowledge how ever has NOTHING to do with religion. )  I feel her presence from time to time visiting me. Like a cobweb brushing my face. A type of tingling. It's then that I speak to her and everything seems right. Yes I'm lonely living on my own but I'm getting used to it. I have a supportive family - two children - plus very kind neighbours 5 who are bereaved men like  myself. I lost Anne about 11 weeks ago. It could have been 11yrs ago or eleven days ago -  my mind is unable to process the time. As you say ' Chin up and keep on going one day at a time. 

Love and Light 

Geoff