Struggling

Hi Wildcat

Work just fills a few empty hour's. The future doesn't bear thinking about does it. Can't see past the pain of now. Hope we may feel differently in time. Clinging to that hope for now.

Take care duck. 

Definitely, I second that: work only fills the hours. I thought of my husband all day long and as soon as I came back home, I had a good, hearty cry. I can't imagine going on like this much longer. Maybe I will need to ask for anti-depressants, like some of you suggested. It all seems so absurd and pointless. Sometimes i think something is wrong with me but as we're all going through the same emotions, I suppose it's reassuring in a grotesque kind of way, if you see what I mean.

While waiting for better days, let's continue to hold our heads high and plod along as best we can. There are tomes when I Wonder if i'm not getting used to the loneliness.

Hi all my father-in-law looks after my dogs while I'm a work they sit at the gate waiting for me to come home it's inly then they will settle and yes I'm 64 and if I'm unlucky I have 20odd years alone what a terrible thought work is just a nothingness as I said before hope you all have a good day I'm off to the nothingness

With all this pain each day it must take a toll on your body how much can you take before it just gives out does anyone else feel the same my body feels like it been beaten up each day 

Oh, Newb, you don't seem to be doing too good today. Just try to get through the day as best you can. I'll probably add to your depression but each day that passes, I tell myself, okay, one day closer to the end. 

This was just to let you know that I heard your cry and that you're not totally alone. 

Hugs and kisses.

Yes, yes and yes! The pain is physical. Even my psychiatrist said the same thing. I actually read somewhere that you can die of a  broken heart and that is what usually happens to elderly people when their spouses die. That's why we often hear that after one dies, the other one follows sometimes in a matter of hours. My blood pressure was always normal - 120/80. Ever since my husband died, it suddenly dropped. I don't know why, don't really care but I can't help but think that it's probably related to the trauma of his death and all the rest. 

Thank you just a bad day I guess 

Gosh yes. I've had so many health issues since my husband that were never a problem before. 

I cry every morning when the reality hits of another day without him. 

Not working means many empty hours. 

I have pain and palpitations all day can't seem to get rid of them the pain in guts and chest and fighting the tears is wearing me down 

Hi Mark, newb ,Limbo and Wildcat. 

I know how you all feel. The pain just doesn’t go away. You put it in to good words newb ( my body feels like it has been beaten up) .

i look forward to going to bed at night and think thank god that’s another day done. It’s a terrible way to live our life but we have no choice. I don’t work either wild cat , what do you do to fill the day . Any tips would be helpful.

Hope your days are a bit better today.

Mike