Struggling

I wish I had more videos, I have loads of photographs but only a few short videos. I miss hearing him laugh :-(

Hi Fiona 

Your Every word is true. Having lost our dog 2 months after losing my wife. I can assure you duck, that your dog is providing you some comfort even if you don't feel it right now. Our dog was the crumb of comfort for me. Now the house is utterly empty and cold without them both. Just an empty shell that means nothing to me now without them.

Take as much comfort from your dog as you can duck. Take care. 

I had our wedding video put into a memory stick and loaded it into computer but that is very hard to watch so rely on the little vids on phone nor so upsetting 

Hi Newb

I agree. Its hard to watch. Our wedding was at the hospital straight after he was diagnosed. its very heartbreaking. I only watched it once since my Rob passed away and  could not stop crying.

Andrea

I feel for you Andrea to see happy faces and what we are now it's a horrible  

Hi Newb

Thank you

I am very thankful that we have this community here. 

I think i would be completely lost. It would be terrifying for all of us in the evenings with no one to talk to.

Thinking of you all 

Andrea 

Not seen Mike's messages tonight

I hope he is OK

X

Hi Andrea 

I'm the same now. I sit here at night with the TV on (not interested in it) reading and replying to group members. I joined the group about week and bit ago.

The mobile signal has been utter rubbish, in the house. Making it frustrating and slow to reply. I've never used my mobile so much, as I'm not obsessed with it unlike most young people are. I'm strictly a one finger keyboard tapper. 

Stumbling through the dark. Searching for the light. 

Take care. 

Hi Mark. 

I am doing the same. Lying in bed and staring at my phone to read people's messages and replies. Not a phone addict either otherwise. Only since i joined this group. Used to tell of my Rob when he was on the phone too much. 

The light seem to have disappeared from our lives. 

I hope we find that light again. 

Take care

Andrea

Hi all 

Spoken to work colleague today who lost his wife 2 and half years ago. He had a memorial bench placed at a local park and had a family picnic there recently. He told me today that doesn't know why but he now feels at ease after 2 and half years of pain and loneliness. 

It's the not knowing how long my journey will take, that makes the torment worse. Anyone feel the same.