Three words i think everyone thinks of everyday who has lost someone that was everything to them ...I MISS YOU .....feeling a mess ...just when you think your doing ok ...you come crashing down to your knees and hold your hands on your head and just cry.....i dont know how much longer i can go on at times ....i just want my wife ...im lost without her i just want to stop having nightmares i wanna stop pretending that times a healer and i dont even wanna be typing this message i just want too be with the person who makes me happy and loved and understands me ...trying to smile trying to take one day at a time sucks ...i dont even know what im typing now cause am confused so i must be confused .i feel like a broken man ....hang on thats because i am a broken man ......low as the bottom of the ocean and everything is black and im shit scared of tomorrow .if i dont reply its cause im gonna go write down some stuff in my book and draw for abit ....i hate Hate hate my life ......what did i do to lose the two ppl that where my life ....i had two friends two people a wife and a daughter why me why where they taken .....waiting for my daughter too grow up and get back in touch with me feels like a prison sentence and without linzi around feels like the world is not real ,maybe thats cause life isnt real maybe like in the four agreements book its just all a dream a sleep dream and a being awake but still dreaming .
