My beautiful mum passed away 2 weeks ago from bowel cancer. I was able to spend a lot of time looking after her including a whole week living in the hospice with her at the end as my employer was very understanding. However, the funeral was only 4 days ago and I am expected back at work in the morning and don't know how I am going to get through it. I won't even be in my usual place of work with close colleagues as I have been asked to go to a meeting elsewhere. I haven't slept properly for many weeks and I'm finding it difficult to make decisions or have motivation to do anything at all. As my manager saw me at the funeral stand up and give a speech about my mum I think she believes I am ready. I managed to get through that day simply on autopilot and because I wanted my mum to be proud of me. I don't know how to cope with going back when I still feel consumed with grief inside. And I don't know how to find the words to explain to my manager how I feel.
