I used to be in the carers forum but today, after my mom died yesterday, I find myself here. It all feels so weird. I woke up this morning wondering if she’d had an okay night & then it hits me.
i was going to see her at 11am yesterday but she died before I got there.
I look at the clock at 6pm & realise we’re not doing our usual daily call to catch-up
I looked at the landline & no-one had rang me today
My friends are being amazing but they’re telling me about their holidays & lives, suggesting we go on holiday etc & I can’t imagine it. I can’t imagine getting through all that’s to come - funeral, house clearance, house sales, 1st & 2nd year, her Birthday, my Birthday, Christmas etc.
It would have been my mom & dad’s wedding anniversary on Sunday. Both are gone now. I’m an only child.
Life was so brutal for my mom with her poor health & then cancer at the end. I’ll do all I can to make her proud but this is going to be super tough.
Anyway, these are my tired ramblings. Let’s hope it gets easier.
Sending everyone in this forum a giant hug. This is tough, so tough. x
Hi LauraB
Sorry to hear about your mum, I used to have a regular weekly call with mine and still from time to time think of how I could tell her something. Both my parents died in 2013 so been a while for me.
Actually for both my parents the funerals were tough but were a positive celebration of lives well lived Get what you mean about birthdays - my mums is coming up on June 2nd but now I look back to celebrate all she acheived. I think perhaps the best we can do espeically in the ealry days is prepare ourselves so that we have time to grieve. Something I found difficult for a while was the sound of bagpipes - my dad was Scottish.
<<hugs>>
Steve
