Mum 55, passed away a week ago. I was her main carer and just me and her at her last breath.
During caring I let myself feel more, now I've completely shut off, I wont let myself feel or cry, I watch tv and binge eat Instead. I feel lost, all at sea.Maybe because my whole life for the past year has centered around caring for her, being with her and now nothing. Sure, I have more free time, but I have no purpose anymore. Several times I've thought the world and me are meaningless now.
I just feel lost, pointless, a waste of space, a waste of life because in comparison her life was so much more worthwhile.
