I stayed next to my mom all night the night she died, this February. I only drifted off to sleep for a short period and during that time she died. I can’t fall asleep now. I get anxious and when my breathing slows as it reminds me of waiting next to her when she was struggling to breathe. She had triple negative breast cancer which had gone to her lungs. I had flown from the U.K. to the USA to be with her. We thought we had more time. I only had 11 hours with her. I’m completely devastated. I only recently turned 34. She had only recently turned 67. We were besties. We travelled together, always went out to sushi together, went shopping together, and so on. We had so much more we wanted to do. She was so young at heart and full of life.
I tried sleeping pills but it kind of freaks me out taking them. It’s odd, falling asleep from medication. I don’t know what to do.
