Hi,
Please ignore my formatting as I’m on my phone; apologies if it doesn’t look right.
I am still very much in a state of shock. My dad died in mid-April, and his funeral was just this week. We found out at the start of March that he had metastatic liver cancer which had spread to his lungs, and he lived for a further six weeks at home with support from my mum, family, carers, and district nurses.
The day before my dad’s passing, he was in a coma but would still flutter his eyes when you spoke to him. I was with my dad when he passed, and it was one of the most heart-breaking and painful things I’ve ever experienced. His body was so still, but his heart was pounding; you could physically see the movement. He also had the death rattle, and I was holding his hand when he passed.
I'm in my mid-thirties, but I do feel somewhat traumatised. I'm waiting for counselling and am in touch with my GP, and I’m already established on antidepressants. I’m not sleeping well and am experiencing nightmares.
I guess I just need to get this off my chest, I don’t know if I have posted in the correct area, so I apologise if it is wrong.
