Hi, I joined this forum nearly 3 years ago when my dad was diagnosed with lymphoma. I didn’t feel brave enough to post anything but I did find reading through the forum helpful.
My dad beat his cancer, but as a side-effect of the chemotherapy he got pulmonary fibrosis- Scarring of his lungs making it difficult to breathe.
My dad was always so positive and had a fighting spirit. He died nearly 2 weeks ago from a heart attack while he was in hospital receiving inpatient treatment for inflammation in his lungs.
I am feeling a mix of things - I am of course feeling sad feeling lost but also feeling really angry that he beat the cancer, he was managing his fibrosis and that something that wasn’t even on our radar is what took him. He was 78 and lived a full and happy life and I am so blessed for all the time we had but I am struggling to deal with this loss. You always imagine it would be painful to lose a parent but I am beyond broken.
I am mourning my dad as well as life as I knew it as now nothing will ever be the same again.
Hello RPop
I am Brian one of the Community Champions here at Macmillan and have just noticed your post has gone unanswered, By me replying it will be " bumped up" to the top of the forum and I hope seen and replied to by other members of the community.
Losing a parent is hard and even harder when you are close. You should be proud of him in his fight against his cancer, sadly it's a way of life (and death) here and there are lots of us on a similar journey. I fully understand your anger at his death though from something unexpected.
You have my sincere condolences and please do remember dad as a fighter against his cancer and have your happy memories of him.
If I can do anything for you to help, please do let me know.
Kind Regards - Brian
Macmillan Support Line - 0808 808 00 00, 7 days a week between 8am-8pm
Strength, Courage, Faith, Hope, Defiance, VICTORY.
I am a Macmillan volunteer.
