Hi, I joined this forum nearly 3 years ago when my dad was diagnosed with lymphoma. I didn’t feel brave enough to post anything but I did find reading through the forum helpful.
My dad beat his cancer, but as a side-effect of the chemotherapy he got pulmonary fibrosis- Scarring of his lungs making it difficult to breathe.
My dad was always so positive and had a fighting spirit. He died nearly 2 weeks ago from a heart attack while he was in hospital receiving inpatient treatment for inflammation in his lungs.
I am feeling a mix of things - I am of course feeling sad feeling lost but also feeling really angry that he beat the cancer, he was managing his fibrosis and that something that wasn’t even on our radar is what took him. He was 78 and lived a full and happy life and I am so blessed for all the time we had but I am struggling to deal with this loss. You always imagine it would be painful to lose a parent but I am beyond broken.
I am mourning my dad as well as life as I knew it as now nothing will ever be the same again.
