Hi everyone. I was on here last year when my mum died of lung cancer. I went into auto pilot mode as my sister was in a bad way and needed help. She couldn't even go out side to start with. I was basically her carer for 8 months until I began to struggle. I had 12 weeks of bereavement therapy but it didn't really deal with all the trauma that I had been through. Not just with my mum but also my uncle who died of cancer and my nan etc. I am now at a place where I am dealing with panic attacks triggered by loud noises. My dads on going heart problems. I have heart problems of my own which have been scary and I have recently hurt my back.
I feel like I am barely holding on. I have contacted my local charity to help with therapy but they have long waiting lists. My gp tried me on talking therapies but I didn't get on with it. I dont want to take antidepressants because last time I was on them I self harmed.
I feel like I am lost and I dont have any one to turn to. I do have family who help but I just want to run away.
Any help or advise would be great. I am not in any danger I am just feeling the wait of my current situation.
Thanks.
