Today has been so tough. I feel emotionally and physically drained. Grief is all consuming. I sat at work in my office crying today and didn’t know who to talk to. I had to just pull myself together and get on with it. I miss my mom so much. Work feels like a lonely place.
Hi BeccaD
Am so sorry that you have had a bad day at work today. Grief certainly is all consuming and it is not surprising that you feel so drained. Have you got a manager that you feel able to speak to- to explain that you are finding it really tough at the moment? With me, I found if I had one person I could go to- it did help. Just having that safe place to go to where you could just sit with someone and cry or talk or just basically have time out. It is so hard when you lose someone and it feels like the world has stopped turning for you, and everyone else is going about their daily routines.
Grief is very up and down, I found. Some days I could cope fairly well and being at work actually kept my mind busy but at other times I just could not cope at all. Have you got support at home, someone you can express how you are feeling to? Have you spoken with your GP, do you feel that you just need some time off? How are you sleeping/eating etc. Would it help to talk to someone?
If it would help, give the Support Line a call- the number is below and they are lovely on there and will understand how you are feeling. There is also counselling to consider perhaps- if you feel it would help.
Sometimes it is hard to "just pull yourself together and get on with it"- what you are feeling seems very natural to me and grief can be a long process, but you do not have to navigate the journey on your own.
There's some good info on here, that may help.
Support with grief | Macmillan Cancer Support
I hope this helps a bit. I am so sorry that you have lost your Mum.
Jane
