Hi everyone
My mum passed away yesterday morning. I'm slightly relieved because now I know she isn't suffering and she has suffered greatly in the past few months.
I just feel so lost though, I have cared for her everyday since she has been bedridden. Washing her, changing her, feeding her and now I just have nothing to do. I work full time alongside caring for mum but I don't feel ready to go back to work. I just feel like a part of me left with mum and I no longer have a purpose because my sole purpose was being a carer for so long.
I know time is the greatest healer and I will feel better but right now, I feel horrible.
Hi LC9944 I am sorry for the loss of your mum. I lost my mum 7 years ago to ovarian cancer, and although I was heartbroken, there was a part of me that felt relief, as she was in terrible pain towards the end. Then I felt guilty for feeling that way. Grief will take you through every emotion, and it is ok to feel horrible.
You did your very best to look after your mum, and now you need to take time to look after yourself. If you don’t feel ready to go back to work yet, then speak to your GP. There is no time scale with grief, just go in your own pace.
Take care
