Want to chat to Dad, I've no one else to dial up.

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Dad, you passed on the 8th May 2019, this Sunday I can't believe it is a quarter of a year since I laid your body to rest in the meadow at Abermule wearin-dye trousers and your fave T, your bike leathers on top of the cardboardUpside downbox with the pink floyd postage stamps. (Wish you were here. Upside down

I have left Wales to you, I'm now in Scotland with Al, there is not a day goes by when I want to ring you, like I did to tell you about stuff and ask your advice. 

Dad you're my rock, finding a job has not been easy, on the phone I reckon you would say," Hey it's ok something will turn up" in your soft soothing voice. You're right Dad. Well after lots of rejections, I start a job at the end of the month....WHAT you reply, "oh Angel I'm so proud of you"

Baz my horse has not been good since the move up. You would listen and say, "I'm sorry to hear that, don't forget if you need some help, just ask"  It still makes me smile, you thought of Baz as a grandson, and liked to buy him a new winter "coat" 

At stupid o'clock you would call me, not to say anything, just so I could hear the band playing at the party or bike rally you're at. Annoying cos you woke me up, but ace cos you're having fun and it's your way of saying "wish you were here"

Miss you Dad, although you are a git for leaving me to fathom stuff out on my own too soon. X

FSNSNF  

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    FormerMember

    I just wanted to say, what lovely words. You are hurting really badly for your dad, but he would be so proud of you to see how much you have managed to achieve, moving to Scotland and a new job! Well done! All of this while grieving. Be prpud of yourself and look after yourself. Xx

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Thx

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Beautiful words and it was a lovely insight into the bond you have with your Dad. Please keep talking (to us or your Dad), it’s exactly how our loved ones would want us to be - not wearing a different ‘tone’, just being how we’ve always been. Your Dad sounds like a great guy and up for a laugh. I’m so sorry for your pain...he would be very proud of you and willing you on. Many congratulations on your new job x

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Thank you for your well wishes Hope_29 

    I am not popping corks just yet until I'm through the door and winging about the desk chair. 

    I was dismissed from my last job due to my performance not being 100 they said due to my dad's ailing health.. so my confidence is a bit shot.

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    FormerMember

    Thanks so much for sharing this honesty. Mum died on the 16th and I am having a similar conversation with her. Except its a dog for me, not a horse. Keep your head above water. Scotland is too beautiful for grief I find it hurts too much but the rain helps me at the moment. 

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Hugs to you, such early days, how long did you know your Mum was poorly? X

    it was a long journey with my Dad his tumour was found 2004 follow a motorcycle RTA. But TBH I think the time makes no difference, it all seems a blur when they pass, and still feels a blur now. Even though my BF has just driven us a 600 mile round trip to plant bulbs on Dads place at the meadow.