My beautiful mum passed away on 10th April 2019 with me and my sister by her side. She was 51 years old. My baby girl was just 6 weeks old.
my mum was diagnosed with stage 4 womb cancer in January 2018. We never wanted to know her life expectancy but she lived just 14 months from diagnosis. I just can’t get my head around it. I know stage 4 was terminal but I had convinced myself she had at least 5 years. How wrong was I?
I just feel so angry. So low. It’s so unfair. As soon as my mum was diagnosed with cancer I started trying for a baby as I never wanted my mum not to be in my babies life one day and it scared me so much. So we was all overjoyed when I fell pregnant. But I only got 5 weeks with my mum and daughter together and even then My mum was in hospital so much towards the end. We were told on the Thursday before she died that one of the tumours were causing her to have kidney failure and that best case scenario we had months left. She passed away the following Wednesday. It was heartbreaking watching my mum die. Myself and sister didn’t leave her side the whole time at the hospital.
i am just struggling so much. What should be the happiest time of my life having my first child has turned into the worst time as I also lost my mum, my best friend. The person who was suppose to guide me through and teach me how to be a mum like her. People say the pain will get better. But everyday just gets worse. I miss my mum so much it physically hurts. I am just so lucky I have my daughter as I dont even no how I could go on without her. She gives me a reason to get up everyday.
Has anybody else been through anything similar? I just cry everyday. It’s so so hard. So unfair.
