My beautiful mum died nearly 13 months ago. She was my rock, truly my best friend. I saw here every day and was very reliant on her emotionally. She keep me grounded.
Since her death, I believe my relationship with my Sister, Dad, and Husband, has changed for the better. We have all become closer and really pulled together.
My worry is, I'm over powering. My mum and I had a close relationship, we were in each other pockets, calls texts, choose to spend all our time together. I know I will never have this bond again and I'm scared. I feel so alone. Even in a sea of people.
With my sister, she has always been fiercely independent and always loved us all, but always been of doing her own thing. I love her dearly but feel sometimes my constant need to be with her, talking to her is overpowering, she's not use to it.
My dad and me have grown closer and I feel I can start to talk to him more and be hope and honest. But he i building a new life for him self, I always hope, I have a big place in it.
My husband has surprised me and really stepped up. I'm normally the one, pushing everything forward (I truly believe that's because I had my mum behind me, every step of the way) now I've lost my confidence and sparkle. He has kept everything together and is supporting me all the way. I just feel, it not the same. I love him I truly do. But I don't feel me, so how can it be the same.
Thoughts and experiences, would be appreciated.
