Hi everyone.
It's been 3 weeks since my Grandma died, the funeral has taken place and now everything seems to be heading back to normal, well not back to normal, maybe a sense of a kind of normality that seems to suit the current mood.
As the post states i'm feeling a bit sort of weird, I wouldn't say lost, just mainly in a kind of dream like sense, of I know that she isn't here anymore, however i'm thinking have i mourned enough and is it ok to carry on with my daily routine.
I think because i was so used to in her final days, going to the hospice, and not thinking now everything has started to calm down, I don't know what to do with myself.
I don't want to sound disrespectful or horrible, when i say this but as i really wish she was still here with us, telling me off and offering to make my tea (always chicken burger with smiley faces and then offering me a cup of tea with cake afterwards, and then saying now would you like anything else). Anyway what i'm trying to say is, have you felt it was a bit of an anticlimax, (even typing that i feel like im being horrible and rude) but we had expected it to happen for weeks and when it did, I felt a bit like oh what do i do now, I think the main bulk of this post, is to say i feel a bit lost as to what to do next.
Sorry that was really long winded to get to the end.
I think even i don't know what i;m meant to be doing right now.
Hope
x
