Dreading New Year

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Christmas was ok and we celebrated in my beautiful mum's honour and had lots of FUN. Just like she told us to and would have wanted. Of course we missed her more than words can say and we really kept her memory alive. 

Now the festives have ended and I'm back home. I literally am dreading the New Year. It's my Mums Birthday on New Years Eve too. I plan to just be in my pjs and chill with my dad and hubby. I really don't want the New Year to come. I don't want a year to start that my beautiful mum won't have lived in. I know it will come and I know I will find inner strength. If this year has taught me anything it's I'm stronger than I ever knew, I cope better than I ever knew. This is the hardest thing I have ever faced. It's werid but I know I can do this because my mum raised me and gave me all these skills. I just wish she was with me. I miss her so much, it still hurts like it was yesterday.   Xxx

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    FormerMember in reply to GBear

    A lovely picture and a lovely, kind thought thank you xx

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    FormerMember in reply to GBear

    Very kind thought GBear and lovely picture xx

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    K8EH - love the cat selfie of Dexter - he’s lovely, I can imagine he has been a great comfort/buddy to you, especially during this particular time. As for the dog I would like, I can’t really see dad changing his mind, little paws running around, is still a pie in the sky thought for me. Like I said Kate, your mum would be so proud of you and would be happy that your settled in your home. Mum knew she was poorly, but never talked about dying and we (me, my sister and dad) didn’t either. I’m sure our mum’s would be so proud of all of us coping xx

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    Hey guys just checking in. Xx

    Love Dexter cat snap. Xx   this Stanley. (I hope you can see it) 

    Had a lovely weekend with my family. Of course we missed mum. But i know she would of loved, we all had such fun. 

    This week been a funny one. Missing my beautiful mum loads, just want a cuddle. Glad for day off. Just remembering sometimes it's ok, not to be ok. 

    So I've come to my family home to walk and cuddle this crazy cockapoo Stanley. (His having a hair cut today too, much needed)  He was my mum's dog. She got him 3 yrs ago when she was told she was in remission. I can honestly say he is brilliant for us all. We all love walking him and he gives lots of love. And knowing my mum adored him is extra special. Xxx

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Ah loving the cat and dog pictures can see Stanley he looks like a lot of fun and looks like he keeps you busy. Heart eyes I would love a dog but have a very nervous cat so thinking it wouldn't be fair on him. 

    My mother's dog is 15 she ended up going to live with my brother and she has been good company for him. She's also misses my mother loads.  I think animals give a lot of comfort and they sense when it's needed. Sometimes I think they are more in tune with human feelings than actual humans.

    Glad to hear you had a good weekend Sunshine.

    Hope the sun is shining with you all. X x x

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    Oh he is. He has been running in the sunshine. Chasing great danesJoyRofl his such a character. Brings so much joy. This morning I wasn't feeling very bright. But an hour in the park with him . Always brightens up my day. As i know my mum adored him and got so much pleasure from his nutty character Joy

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    Stanley sounds great fun . 

    I agree, pets bring great joy and comfort. I lost my last cat last year too. I’ve had seven in total since I was little - the most being three at the same time. I miss them all hugely too.

    I too am missing Mum loads. Each letter/post that comes brings yet another reminder as she slowly slips further from physical life. It’s definitely getting worse for me, not better.

    What’s everyone got planned for the weekend?

    xx

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    Spu, he certainly is. Xxx it is sooo hard isn't it. Xx I have my good and bad days. Just taking each day at a time. I guess that's all you can do. Xx I'm working all weekend. So will be a busy bee. So im going to put my pjs on and watch Gogglebox it was one of my mums favourites. XXx 

  • I think sometimes that we go though different stages, and sometimes we go though really rough patches like you find yourself now. I am sorry your feeling worse at the moment, its always hard when post comes for someone who is no longer with us.

    Animals are a great comfort for us, I grew up mostly with dogs but we did have a cat when I was very young and when I felt down I would give the dog/cat an extra cuddle, their great to speak too as they don't answer back. But they do sense when something is wrong and they grieve too. Stanley looks so cute

    Over the weekend I hope to finish off my latest drawing and may start another if I can. Fatigue has been hitting me a lot lately and I think I have got this weird cold bug that's been going round, its settled in my ears and throat so I got the tickle cough now, but maybe its finally coming out, its been seating there for a few weeks now, I have been feeling congested but just seating there. 

    I hope everyone can at least enjoy the sunshine if it around where you live over the weekend I believe its suppose to be very warm still.

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    Lovely picture of Stanley. Animals can bring a lot of comfort and good therapy for people too. I would love a small dog, but I live with dad and he’s allergic to cats and dogs. Dad says even a hypoallergenic dog would affect him, I know it probably wouldn’t, but dad is very set in his ways. My week has been a mixture - some ok days and very tearful days, missing mum so much, but, plodding on with life. Hope you all - Lou, Sunshine, SPu and Kate manage to get through the weekend ok xx