Dreading New Year

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Christmas was ok and we celebrated in my beautiful mum's honour and had lots of FUN. Just like she told us to and would have wanted. Of course we missed her more than words can say and we really kept her memory alive. 

Now the festives have ended and I'm back home. I literally am dreading the New Year. It's my Mums Birthday on New Years Eve too. I plan to just be in my pjs and chill with my dad and hubby. I really don't want the New Year to come. I don't want a year to start that my beautiful mum won't have lived in. I know it will come and I know I will find inner strength. If this year has taught me anything it's I'm stronger than I ever knew, I cope better than I ever knew. This is the hardest thing I have ever faced. It's werid but I know I can do this because my mum raised me and gave me all these skills. I just wish she was with me. I miss her so much, it still hurts like it was yesterday.   Xxx

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    SPu - so true. At the end of the day, the material things don’t matter - the love we have for our loved ones will never break and our loved ones will always be in our hearts. I’m pleased that everything went nice yesterday and as you said, a nice day out with your mum.Hope your week goes ok x

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    K8EH - good luck with the new job, I’m sure your mum would be so proud and happy x

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    Sunshine19 - hope you had a nice weekend with your family. My dad would be exactly the same, regarding the eyebrows x

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    I remember. In time, maybe you’ll be able to watch a Columbo again Sunny43 - or maybe you just won’t want to. Either way, it’s understable.

    Strangely, I think I remember reading one of your posts once and wondered if you had ever thought about getting a cat or dog. There are some breeds that are ok for people with allergies - for sure don’t rule it out yet. 

    I still haven’t don’t the headspace app. All in good time I’d say - sometimes it’s just about functioning through the day right. 

    Xxxx

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    Thank you Sunny43 xx  She knew how badly I wanted to get out of my currentcompany. I just wish I could tell her and see her reaction.

    Sadly I have 3 months notice at my current work place, so you may have to all listen to me moan about the negative energy some more but on a positive, they haven’t cut my counselling benefit! So I can still see the lady I was seeing for a few more sessions! Small silver lining. 

    Going to cook a chilli and have a relaxing bath shortly. 

    Sending you all lots of positivity and love for the week ahead xx

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    Sunshine19 - thinking of you. 

    Spu - what a wonderful way to celebrate someone who was no doubt a remarkable lady - your mum. 

    Xxx

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    K8EH - there are times, when I think I must tell mum that, then remember, emotions can be so overwhelming at times can’t they. I hope the 3 months go over quickly for you, would be good if we could fast forward the parts of our lives that we wanted to go quickly. I’m glad that you can still see the lady for the counselling, as you said a small silver lining.  In time I might be able to watch the programmes that mum and me used to watch, I have the television on, but not taking much notice and the news is just about Brexit. As for the dog, well, if you knew my dad, he is very set in his ways, even if I explained about the hypoallergenic dogs, dad would still say the dog would affect him - I used to say to mum, I wish dad was more like you, mum was more open to things. Enjoy the chilli Kate. Love and positive thoughts for the upcoming week xx

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    I understand that Sunny43. Mum was so excited to come and stay at my house and was always up for all the DIY projects that needed to be done. Sadly, dads just not as keen at the moment. Mum believed in the place that I bought and wanted to help set it up for me. Maybe she secretly knew she had limited time - will never know. 

    Maybe your dad just needs a little more time. Don’t give up if you believe a furry friend can bring you some comfort. Dexter my cat has been such a pal through it all. 

    Always thinking of you all xx

    ps. Cat snap

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    Awwwwww loving Dexter cat!! Heart eyes catHeart eyes cat xx

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