They say everything comes in threes. First, my bladder cancer, second my partner has two suspicious looking moles on his legs. He is very fair skinned and covered in moles. These two are not like the others though, red, rough and uneven. And they appear to be getting bigger. He's seeing the doctor on Monday. Third, a small lump I've had for years appears to be growing bigger. I'm waiting for the doctor to ring me. Meanwhile…
This cancer thing seems so much harder for my partner than for me. He gets really upset although it appears we have caught it in time as it hasn't spread. The thing is it keeps bringing me down. I'm a glass half full person and want to feel positive but he's so worried about what will happen to him and the dog if I die. We are in council housing and I am applying to have my partner's name on the tenancy agreement. It…
I have my appointments next Tuesday, 22nd August, first one with the surgeon and second one with the radiologist. It looks like they'll be recommending chemotherapy. I'm over my knee-jerk reaction of NOOOOooooo! I'm looking at it this way, I've been a smoker for forty-five years, only recently quit and still having the odd one occasionally. I figure I may have cancer cells elsewhere and the chemotherapy will put a stop…
It is 19 days since my turbt yet it feels like months. I'm not complaining, I like the feeling. My partner and I have achieved more togetherness and instead of this good thing flying past I have time to enjoy it. I suppose I used to run around doing all sorts of meaningless things that no longer have any importance and I fail to see why I thought they did. I guess my priorities have changed. I now spend more time on my…
