Allpeachy's blog

Just got back from my now three monthly clinics - it's officially ONE YEAR TODAY since the consultant told me there was no evidence of disease - it doesn't seem possible. I am elated and vow not to worry so much next time the clinic comes round - in fact I suggested my Onco pre-fills in my forms with 'NED'! He was kind enough to laugh .. I have yearly CT scans, my next isn't until July. I asked him if he was confident…

Full of hope on this new years day, but reflecting on the fact that I am one of only a couple of people I have met through here and Macm that have not had recurrence of some kind from anal cancer. The prognosis was extremely good and I hold onto that, but sometimes the odds seem to be building up. Another check up at the clinic in two weeks' time, probably why I'm starting to worry again. Trouble is people I've got…

I would like to wish all my Buddies, and all those who I have had the great fortune to meet these past few months, a wonderful time over this holiday period. It has dawned on me as we reach the closing of this year - achieving almost a year of remission - how lucky I am, and all of us are, who have this time to celebrate our lives with our family and friends, and especially our children. Time with my daughter is a celebration…

I need to write this down to 'debrief'. Today I faced what felt like the hardest challenge I have every had. It was my cousin's funeral and the family who have alienated me through directing their anger wrongly at me were going to be there. Since the rift I am totally alone as a single mum, with no other family nearby. I knew I wanted to, had to, go to his funeral for him, and his family, and for myself as we have…

I received amazing support from my post about depression after remission. Most importantly I found that my feelings were 'normal' and shared by many of us who have experienced cancer and despite the 'no evidence of disease' still are left feeling anxious and at times very depressed. I have been applying lots of thought from the advice and experiences of everyone and have tried to explain my situation to my closest family…