sim's blog

I can be very patient with others, but am quite impatient internally. Awaiting appointments makes me nervous. I know I'm not alone in this, I'd sooner get things rolling, no matter how awkward or unpleasant they're going to be. Just when I was worrying that I hadn't been given a date, and was stressing that the MRI was going to interfer with my slotting back into the work training sessions this Thursday, I had a phonecall…

My timing has always been impeccably bad. I'm constantly the person that'll phone wanting a deep n meaningful chat just as you're about to go out. So it shouldn't have surprised me that my next stage of diagnosis was to happen in the first week of training in not only a new job, but a totally new career path. Part of my life laundry at hitting 30 was to get a 'proper job', which meant leaving the comfort zone of my…

People have their issues with the NHS, but I have to say, my experience so far has been really positive. It was exactly a week from the time of That Smear, to the next appointment. The nurses were not just lovely, but the most amazingly understanding angels I have ever met. I swear, when this process is over, I'm going to write the kindest, longest letter the NHS has ever received, saying how wonderful the nurses at…

You tell him what the GP told you. The saying 'the bigger they are, the harder they fall' has never rang so true. D's my big lovely, the single most important thing in the world. Just him being around me lifts me. His is the most awesome hug in the world, those big strong arms that shelter me from anything that life chucks at me, transporting me into a world where everything is better. It broke my heart in two having…

It's a lump. Not the internal tear I thought it was. I just thought that because I'm a small girl, and my boyfriend is a 'big boy', if you know what I mean, ;-) I thought THAT was the reason for the bleeding during intimacy. I actually expected my GP to find the tampon she initially thought was stuck up there... despite my not having used tampons in years... Life Laundry is overrated. I just hit 30, and felt the need…