SazB's blog

Still really stuggling to come to terms with the fact that Mum has gone. I'm not sleeping very well, drinking far too much alcohol and starting arguments with my boyfriend over frankly silly and minor things (usually after I've had a bottle of wine). I've been to see my GP who has prescribed antidepressants for a month's trial. I have in the past been on and off various antidepressants for 8 years and am reluctant to…

Hi all. Wanted to share with you that I'm doing the Night Strider Walk on 10th of July. It's for women only and it's 9-12pm at Taunton Racecourse. The idea is to walk or run as many laps as possible round the race course within the 3 hours. I will be raising money for St Margaret's Hospice in Taunton. I cannot praise the staff at St Margaret's Hospice enough. Mum was only there for 5 days before she passed away but they…

My lovely brave wonderful Mum lost her battle with liver cancer 6th of May. I haven't been on here for a few weeks as it has been too painful and emotional. Her funeral was on the 15th of May. It was a beautiful and moving service and I read out a couple of poignant poems. I still can't believe she's gone, everything reminds me of her. I know the cliche of 'time is a healer' and I'm hoping it's true as I am still very…

Update: Mum went in to a hospice on Friday morning. It was her decision to go for respite, but I think she's gone in there to fade away and that she has no intention on coming out. Part of me is being positive and thinking that she will fight and come home once they've sorted out her extremly swollen, painful legs. But I think that's me being optimistic and not realistic. Dad has told me brother and I to prepare ourselves…

Just had the most awful weekend ever. Mum was discharged on Friday evening at 9pm. It was all terribly rushed and unorganised. Mum was sent home with NO medication at all. Dad asked for an ambulance to take her home as he wouldn't be able to get her up a very steep flight of stairs leading up to my parents flat. They bundled her up the stairs, pushing her, and they didn't have a chair. Mum was so weak once she finally…