Update: Mum went in to a hospice on Friday morning. It was her decision to go for respite, but I think she's gone in there to fade away and that she has no intention on coming out. Part of me is being positive and thinking that she will fight and come home once they've sorted out her extremly swollen, painful legs. But I think that's me being optimistic and not realistic. Dad has told me brother and I to prepare ourselves and that she hasn't got long. I'm really struggling to comprehend this information and also don't want to believe it. My brother and I saw her this afternoon and she was drifting in and out of sleep, mumbling random things, v lucid. My brother and I were deeply upset and distressed at seeing her like this and broke down in to tears. Luckily a nurse was passing by the room and took us to a quiet room for a chat. We voiced our concerns and fears. It was so so hard seeing my little brother in tears and not being able to hold it together.
I'm staying with my Dad tonight but I don't know if I'll be much company. Just think I'm falling apart and not strong enough. Have so many emotions going through my head; anger, disbelief, hurt, sadness....
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sorry to hear about your mum. my prayers are with you all. just keep visiting your mum she loves you and knows you are there she will feel your love and light.be strong love to you all. eileen
I'm so sorry for your distress and your worries over your mum. Try and comfort yourself that your mum is in a safe place, and is being looked after by kind nurses who will make sure she is comfortable. She probably needs the reassurance of professionals keeping an eye on her at the moment. You will somehow find the strength to cope with this and you, your dad and brother will draw strength and comfort from each other. Talk to the nurses at the hospice as much as you need too, they will understand everything you are feeling. All your emotions are very natural, but try and look after yourself too, your mum would want you to do that. My thoughts are with you. Annie x
Saz, I am sorry your mum is so unwell. If the hospice is anything like ours then she will get the best possible care. Your dad is being incredibly strong for you all. I do hope that things improve. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this time. x x
